Title:  I Have to Learn to Forgive
Posted:  Sunday, August 12, 2012 @ 7:07 AM
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Doesn't anyone other than me sometimes find it really hard to forgive? And even more to forget? When you forgive, you aren't supposed to forget. Then you don't learn anything.It's really hard to forgive someone when they've hurt you so much that you're scarred beyond recognition. It's really hard to forgive when you know they hurt you, and they don't even regret it. It's really hard when you know that they didn't think twice. It's really hard when she used to be a friend.

 I know I have to forgive her someday. I'm not some kind of heartless monster to go around holding grudges, but the truth is, I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being the better person, always being the one to try to make peace, or at least conquer up the ability to carry on a civilized conversation. I want someone to reach out and try to make peace with me for a change. I don't want to go through life being an angry person. I just want to be me.

 So why can't I just forgive her? Why is it this hard?

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